perfect.

i woke up this morning, and as soon as i opened my eyes, i know i am living the most perfect life i could ever imagine. i thank God for it.

yesterday, i took my last IB exam. it felt so good bidding farewell to such a demanding program. i know i don't need to worry as much about my final results because i have been accepted at a college - unconditionally (as long as i graduate). that's it, i'm completely done with my high school career. i couldn't be any more excited for college in the fall.

i spent the day with my mom and boyfriend - it was lovely. shopped, exercised, and ate. three of my most favorite things to do in my spare time.

a few minutes past midnight, i logged in to my university of indonesia account. this is it.

both my parents went to the university of indonesia for undergraduate studies before continuing to berkeley and sorbonne. all my cousins, uncles, and aunts, all went to this university. basically speaking, it's in my blood. even though i have already confirmed my enrollment to simmons college in boston, my dad wanted me to be on the 'admitted students list of university of indonesia'. you may ask why, the answer is, just because.
and i know he would get disappointed if i didn;t make it.

i logged in.

i opened another tab, because i didn't want to see it straight away.

i prayed.

i switched back to my first tab, and saw a statement that made my heart felt oh so light because i was soooo relieved.

i got in :)

as soon as my parents saw the printed notification letter that i pasted on their door, they congratulated me.

my life is perfect.

i have nothing, NOTHING to worry about.

internship. graduation. prom night. bali trip. college. -- i can hardly wait.



but i wonder, how could life be so perfect?

i'm not that nice, i don't always obey my parents, i do bad things sometimes - i'm not a perfect candidate for such a perfect life.

but then i realized.

this is God telling me how much He loves me. even with my flaws here and there, my wrong doings now and then - He still blessed me abundantly, it's crazy.

instead of punishing me, He kept on showing unconditional love to me. i would be crazy to keep thinking this is going to happen always. no. i know there is going to be a time when He will finally punish me, if i keep doing the same.
now if i don't want to get punished, it's me who needs to change.